I need you more

With all that's been going on in my life lately, music has been a huge focus. I have been getting a lot that I need out of the lyrics of certain songs. I have been given hope and comfort through songs. One song that I have listened to and have made my prayer is "I Need You More" by Lindell Cooley. I like the version on the Bethel Live Album, Here is Love. Check it out on Youtube.
The lyrics to this song are simple:

I need You more

More than yesterday

I need You Lord

More than words can say

I need You more

Than ever before

I need You Lord

I need You Lord

More than the air I breathe

More than the song I sing

More than the next heartbeat

More than anything
And Lord as time goes by

I'll be by Your side

Cause I never want to go back

To my old life

We give you the highest praise

We lift you up, oh yea

All our praise

All love, our adoration, God

We give you all

We give you all, yea

More than the air I breathe

More than the song I sing

More than anything

I need you more

More than the air that I breathe

More than any song I could ever sing

Oh so much more than anything

I need you more

Oh I'm so hungry for more of your presence, God

I don't want to stay where I've been

I don't want to camp out and just stay in one place God

I want to run deeper into your presence God

Cause I'm hungry for so much more of you

My heart always follows you

My heart always finds its way home to you

Cause my heart is pressing in,

Pressing in to your voice tonight God

Pressing In to your voice tonight

What are you saying

What are you doing

I just want to be with you, tonight

I just want to be in your presence tonight

Oh Jesus

I need you more

So much more than anything

 So much more than everything

You're all I want

You're all I want

Tell him tonight

Tell him tonight

You're all that I want God

I need you more

These words just make me remember how much I truly need God and that He will help me through any and all difficulties, I just need to fully rely on Him. I know that I need Him more than anything, but sometimes, I have a hard time giving it all to Him. I have learned a lot in the last couple of weeks about how much He IS in control and that no matter what we do, He will be in control. I know He's in control, but I like to have the control myself and sometimes it's hard to just hand over the reigns and fully let God take control. I think it's at those times that God shows me more than anything that He is in control and that things may not turn out exactly like we want them but more like how He knows that they're going to turn out. 

 

Even though my family, (yes, my family even if it is Justin's side) is going through a really tough time right now, I pray that God will continue to show us His plans for this struggle. I just pray that we will soon begin to understand why such a thing has happened as it is very hard to understand why such a young life would be taken. I pray for healing to take place in many lives. I know for me, this has given me the opportunity to share with others about how God is in control and that even though we go through struggles, there is a reason. I also believe that there will be stronger relationships built because of this and I am very grateful for the stronger relationships.

A long time

I can be horrible at updating!! And I have been. I haven't actually been missing, just so busy with life around me that I forget about posting new updates. There has been so much that has happened since September...where to start...hmm.

Well let's start from the beginning. We moved from P-Cola in November to our new home in San Diego (we're loving it here). After settling into the new place for a little less than a week, Justin flew back to VA to meet up with his ship. Before he left, we visited and found a new church home full of great people. While Justin was away, I continued to meet a lot of awesome people and get involved with the church. I spent Christmas here in SD with a lot of great people from church. The new year came and I spent it with another group of awesome people. In February, Justin's ship made a stop for a weekend in Mayport, Florida after leaving Haiti and I flew out to meet up with him. We had a wonderful time together that turned out even better than we expected because a couple of weeks later, I found out that we're having our first baby. March came and went. Finally it was April and Justin's ship made it to their new homeport here in SD. It's been great having Justin home for a while. Soon after he made it home, we had a small get together at our house with people from church to give them the opportunity to get to know Justin a bit.

Memorial Day weekend was spent in Las Vegas with a great friend and her wonderful little boy. Since then we've just been spending lots of time together especially knowing what's coming in the next couple of months with Justin's schedule. We're having a pizza party this weekend that should be fun. Anyone that has been to our pizza parties knows exactly how fun those parties can be.

I'm going to try and update a bit better than I have been. But who knows what's going to happen.

Here's a picture of our beautiful little girl, BriAhna Elizabeth. She's due on October 30, 2010.